I wanted to see it, but I didn’t want to see it. I’m talking about the “gay cowboy” movie called Brokeback Mountain (although I read Jake Gyllenhaal, one of the two main actors, “Jack Twist”, he wants it to mean a lot more than that to his audience).
I didn’t want to see Brokeback Mountain because I felt that it could be considered a kind of tacit approval of two men who “fall in love”, which goes against my Christian essence and my biblical beliefs, but I wanted to see it because I am humanly “gay to the end” . However, I am not a practicing homosexual (some would say I am a professional!), sober and celibate by choice, So help me God, because of deep spiritual convictions.
I went on errands with a gay friend (who knows my beliefs and knew me wildly and now knows me meek), visiting his “lover” in the Bowling Green, Ohio jail, where he is serving ten days for drunk driving, he donated a autographed copy of my book Beyond Babylon: the rise and fall of Europe to the main library in downtown Bowling Green (since I was born there 46 years ago, but never lived there), we bought some fast food and visited my friend’s mother where we ate and then she asked me if I wanted to see Brokeback Mountain which it would be showing at Franklin Park Mall (now called Southfield or something like that since the British took over) in Toledo shortly so I said yes and we rushed to get there and made it, ten minutes late. I had seen him a week earlier in Michigan with some gay and lesbian friends, thinking he wouldn’t show up around here, bad!
Immediately you have to be in awe (or sit and look at) the scenery that is most spectacular and moving, especially when the sheep are being herded and moving on the big screen in front of you as if you could reach out and caress one, and the mountains. they are majestic that aspire to reach the sky with their snowy peaks adorned with forests here and there, evergreens, and of course I couldn’t help but think of the irony of nature playing such a prominent role in this film that the Apostle Paul I would say is against nature …
I was surprised to see so many older people in the audience. I thought everyone would be willing in their own way (I’m not saying that’s wrong in any way), traditional, opposed to such a real or imagined threat to “family values.” Maybe they just wanted to see a movie that seemed interesting or are also jaded, or insensitive to the severity of sin like many, or recognized that it could spark a discussion or a greater understanding (without necessarily endorsing) of this whole thing. question of homosexuality.
I thought the first sex scene was pretty abrupt, nothing really leading up to it, no matching games or crosses or sneaking glances or hints of anything out of the ordinary. They must have all been buried underneath all that butch (male) look, simmering somewhere, and the fuel in the fire was a little too much liquor, true to life. Alcohol can remove inhibitions that some may have or offer an excuse later to help cover their butt (which is why I am sober and celibate by God’s grace). The movie helps to break the stereotype that all homosexuals are fagots, flabby doll fags, but hasn’t Rock Hudson already proved it? Among others.
The whole idea (or unhealthy idea) of two men on a mountain, away from the rules and regulations and norms, reminded me of a passage within a little booklet that I wrote years ago (“God and Gays: What the Bible Really Says About Homosexuality “) to address many of the issues Brokeback Mountain addressed: about how some men who are basically” straight “will engage in homosexual acts while in prison or in a monastery, but quickly revert to their preferred heterosexual passion as as soon as possible and pretend that nothing ever happened.
At BM, which we called “Bareback Mountain” among us (no “safe sex” had been practiced between the men or women involved since it was established in the 1960s), the partners initially went their separate ways and got married and therefore they showed that they were hybrids, bisexuals, since obviously they could be sexually stimulated by men and women. A curiosity for both heterosexuals and homosexuals. But the first chance they had to get back together, in every way, they jumped on her like a raging bull coming out of their cage. “Free at last, free at last!”
I’ve seen Oprah with men on her show who have been married for years, with children, who suddenly “found out” that they are gay and, by “finding” themselves, isn’t that just interesting? – lose his wife and children. What about the commitment they made to God and man? I don’t care if you are gay or straight, if you make a vow, you must keep it! Why make victims of the truly innocent wife and children who did not? Don’t you ask? Of course some will say all are victims, And that is true up to a point, but even if someone has “feelings”, they must control them or nip the wrong thoughts in the bud, not allow them to take root and grow.
Why do some find it fascinating for a man to cheat on his wife with another man, but stone someone who was going through their “midlife crisis” by sleeping with younger women to prove something to himself? It’s not that the thoughts aren’t there, it’s possible to covet your neighbor’s wife or husband (or both), but you’re supposed to control those nonconformist thoughts and not let them pass you by in your life and marriage.
Of course, two men can fall in love, or a married man and woman can fall in love with someone other than their spouse, but you are not supposed to prepare for a fall, you are not supposed to allow yourself to flirt with forbidden love, you are supposed to You must control your thoughts instead of letting them control you (Genesis 4: 7).
Brokeback Mountain forcibly brings all these tumultuous thoughts, tormenting conflicts of interest and personal struggles to the surface, surging like lava from a volcano, which I am now struggling and pouring out for others to consider.
We can feel desperate and too human or we can transcend human relationships, overcoming sin instead of being overcome by it, rising to tea Mountain, following the path paved by the Suffering Servant (Isaiah 53), who turned his back to be beaten by us to break the power of sin over us, by whose wounds you were healed, that carries our anguish, sadness and sin; going up to Mount Zion and “to the heavenly Jerusalem, and to an innumerable company of angels …” (Hebrews 12:22).
Instead of wrong desires that only lead to self-destruction, let us long to return to Zion again and again.